We never say to each other, i hate you or leave to never see each other again.  We have to keep contact with each other.  I know we have a big LOVE.  We have hearts that grow love together.

I don’t know what we must to do if we not love each other, mean we have to move on or never see each other again.  Plus we will change our life to different paths not same like past whiles we together, but if we apart then move on.  My GOAL is to get him to became be mine forever.  Always goal what i want to be with one guy like this!  I don’t want find a new guy for me because it will be little confusing to what his feeling are inside again.  No i don’t want to make find other guy, i want to be same old one.

He’s only one that i truly love him, because he’s the amazing guy ever i see since we are little kid to grow became soon be adult, i hope he’s will became understand what loves is way.  I love him to death, i can’t let him going.  Because he’s only one, he’s not be understand what is my feeling on inside is…  I like his way or his personality, some time i think seem he have a wonderful in part of his life?  I think so.  The way I stared at his blue beautiful eyes, i think it’s was so cool colors on his eyes because he have pretty eyes like a star eyes, make me feel likes he’s got lucky.  But one thing, i would like to be when he’s be my true friend like a BEST FRIEND.  Only one, he make me most comforable with him & feels safe when i was with him. 

And, one thing… I don’t want be any ruins our friendship, & lovers.

I hate when people doing this like..

Peoples ruin us, gossip, rumors, and make up likes a not true stories.

And, i hate when i feels lost.

Lost him

Lost friendship

Lost best friend

Lost trust

Lost relationship

Lost feelling

Lost eyes contact

People hurt me, crutuze me, lie to me.

Turn their backs on me time and time again..

They kill me slowly then wonder what my fucking problem is?

she’s searching for someone to save her from this place, to rescue her from what she can’t escape.  There’s not much hope left; she’s thrown it all away.  She’s been knocked down so much.  She can’t get up, she cries out in pain, take me further, away, outside of this.  I’m falling apart looking for what’s outside of this.

but he don’t love me?

i love his beautiful eyes.

but don’t he love my eyes?

I love his soft lips.

but don’t he love my smooth lips?

I love his sexy body.

but i’m not good enough for him?

i love his way of speaking

but don’t he love to speak to me?

i love him but i’ve had enough,

should i move on?